When I wrote this story, I was in college trying to figure out what to study, and I thought I had to have my whole life figured out. I was insecure about connecting with people, often lacking self-confidence. This story stemmed from the perceived horror of not being accepted, contrasted with exploring what it means to discover oneself. I chose to show this through awkward roommate interactions, getting lost in a more grotesque intrusive thought, and the exploration of acting on the impulse. Ultimately, it is rooted in the often terrifying nature of finding oneself and transitioning into adulthood.