When I don’t know how to grieve or how to deal with intense emotions, I feel lost. I tell myself to function routinely as a way to cope, but at the same time, suppress emotions I need to eventually face. As I smile, I feel myself being put into a delusional state, unable to accept what is present, and instead choose distracting, or harmful actions for my growth.
In “Beach Girls”, I wanted to show an exaggerated side of delusion and the complete sense of losing one’s self when emotions and grief have been buried down by regular routine.