Toni Cade Bambara once said, “A usable truth can frequently be made more accessible to the reader if I ignore the actual facts.” Female Loaferism, or Why I Think I Have OCD imagines a world where mental illness can be traced through free online ancestry sites. A Black girl caught in an OCD spiral searches for proof of her pain online. A nursery rhyme, “I Know an Old Lady Who Swallowed a Fly,” loops endlessly, pretending there is no source to her pain. Her maternal line emerges, revealing how ancestors were punished and policed across history, deepening inherited distress.